Serious Sunday

Its a serious Sunday. I believe this blog to be an entertainment blog, especially with all the fun photos I post. I also have used this blog as a form of therapy and at times find that I still need assistance with stress relief. "Don't be afraid of failure"Have you heard that phrase or something similar? I most certainly have. My question to the universe is, how can I be afraid of failure in the midst of feeling like a failure?There I said it. I feel like a failure. I spent three years studying and working on an MBA in Finance. Once I graduated, I couldn't find a job with my degree but I already had one and knew that I would be moving within a couple of years. Then I moved. The best job I could obtain was a customer service/sales job. What was all that work for? Why do I have to pay a mortgage sized student loan payment with a baby paycheck? My boss keeps telling me that my paycheck can be better if I sell more. I'm not impressed, interested or motivated any longer. After securing this job, I continued the hunt; actively and aggressively looked for a new job. I was ignored by every company. I paid hundreds of dollars for a streamlined professionally written resume and found nothing but more sales jobs. I found a placement agency that is looking for work for me and has sent me on some interviews but still nothing has transpired. I can't do it on my own.I can't find a job with a placement agency.I need a miracle from God. If God can erase three of my sister's medical bills, couldn't he also erase student loans?Dear Lord, I know you have a plan. I know its your timing. I know that I am getting tired of the depressing view in my life. Please come. Please show me your miracles. Thank you and Amen. Dear Bloggy Friends,Please come back tomorrow, where I promise to be more positive for Make a Difference Monday. Thank you!

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Doubt. Anxiety. Worry. Concern. That was Tuesday. What will Wednesday bring? I hope it brings good news. I am not sure my mind can take all this stress.

I am still praying for a miracle. Amen.

My plate is full

Dear Lord, my plate is full. I need you to take a few things off. I'm cool with miracles and I think I need it. Amen.

Meeting the challenge

Today’s rating is Positive.

Its been good and challenging the last few days. I’ve struggled with making smart decisions and I know that I have to decide what will be best for our home. I am praying that I’ve done well. In the end, God is in charge and all will work out in the long run.

I experienced a small miracle today. I lost my $100 sunglasses a couple of weeks ago and finally decided to call the last business I visited before going home. Turns out my sunglasses were turned in and kept in the company safe until I retrieved them. I was thrilled and I’m still praising the Lord! Amen!

Day of Thinking

Today’s rating is Positive.

It has been a dizzying day of thinking about moving, volunteering at a food bank for an hour, and wasting time with survey’s on the computer. I feel as though very little was actually accomplished which doesn’t help.

I wish I could say that I am very strong and very patient. That is most definitely not true. I am second guessing every step I take. I am looking for support from everyone around me. I know to lean on God’s strength and His timing but that’s not so easy to do completely. I will keep meditating on God’s promise. Somehow things work out. Maybe later, I could say it was a miracle.

Miracle

Today’s rating is Positive.

It was a tough week but I managed to get through it with help from friends. I also experienced a miracle this week and I am still thanking God for it. I had my phone on my lap and as I got out of the car it fell down next to the emergency brake. The emergency brake is next to the door, so its a miracle the phone didn’t fall on the ground. My panic levels were extremely high and I still needed five minutes after finding the phone to calm down.

Have you experienced any miracles?