Connections

Today’s rating is Positive.

As I think about the last two years of my life, I can see that it was incredibly stressful. What is interesting to me is that the stress hasn’t changed or left but I have been able to change my frame of mind. Generally, I am a positive person but I can’t maintain that focus all the time. If I lose concentration, things can go downhill fast for me.

The only change I’ve made is reaching out to friends and family. Literally, I forced myself to email at least one person or text a different person. I had to force myself to stay in touch because I found that I was too lazy, complacent, and content to stay miserable. Yeah, that doesn’t make sense. I still have challenges to overcome but I am able to make it through with my family, friends, and God.

Thank you Lord for the connections that you have blessed me with. I could not live without relationships.

Current Struggle

Today’s rating is Positive.

Currently, I am struggling with relationships. I will text, email, facebook, or call a friend or family member. Sometimes, I don’t hear from that person very quickly. I would like it if people responded right away or at least the same day. I feel ignored when I don’t hear from people. That’s probably not how I should feel, since any logical person understands that we are all busy. At the same time, I also know that sending a quick message or text takes so little effort. I don’t understand why this is so hard for me and for my support group. I work hard to stay in touch because I know the importance of relationships. Is it really too hard for everyone else?

I probably don’t want to know the answer to that question.

Wonderful Weekend

The weekends rating is Positive.

Friday, my friend came over and we had fun watching tv, playing Yahtzee and having a few drinks. Saturday, I went to another friend’s house. We watched a movie, ate leftovers, and fresh baked brownies. YUM! It was a lot of fun!

As I tried a new church today, I realized that I don’t need church. I need people who love God, who want to have fun with me, and who want to encourage and possibly push me to love others more. We all need people around us to do the very same things. We help each other out and that’s how God created us, relational beings that need to be with others.

I have let relationships fall aside. Possibly for quite stupid reasons. I now ask for forgiveness and if you want to reopen those doors with me, please email me at estherdavison@rocketmail.com. I welcome opening old friendships and creating new ones. Lets walk life together and try to have some fun too.

Tough Decisions

Today’s rating is Positive.

I forgot the nap that I deserved but I played the piano for the first time in 3 months. Happily, I haven’t forgotten anything. At church the one thing that stood out for me was how we need to be passionate for God and make a difference. I know that I am supposed to play the piano but I also know that now is not my time. I need to practice so when it is my turn, I will be ready to jump right in.

I am also dealing with a tough decision about church. I don’t feel that Watermark has enough support for me because its a small church. Should I go try a bigger church? On the other hand, I should be leaving around May or June. Is it realistic to create new relationships just to leave them? These are questions that I don’t know the answer to. I am praying and seeking counsel. If you have any advice, please share! Thanks!