The struggle

I keep wondering if I make a difference. I know that I give back so little to my community. I only play piano for church youth group every other week. 

At work, I've been told that I'm a valuable employee. It's a struggle though because I don't feel valued. I don't feel that what I do makes a difference at all. 

I didn't get a raise. I didn't get a promotion. At work, I got a lateral move. Several managers has told me that I'm a valuable employee but the treatment I receive doesn't say that. 

Chances are, I may never see or feel the impact I make at church. I'd like to at least see it at work. Management, give this employee a raise. 

Stay positive

It has been a long week. I have had good times and bad times. I am working on staying positive. It's not easy but it's important. Helping the community and positive thinking helps. If you are having a hard time, talk to someone. Talking things out really makes a difference. Happy weekend!

Tough Decisions

Today’s rating is Positive.

I forgot the nap that I deserved but I played the piano for the first time in 3 months. Happily, I haven’t forgotten anything. At church the one thing that stood out for me was how we need to be passionate for God and make a difference. I know that I am supposed to play the piano but I also know that now is not my time. I need to practice so when it is my turn, I will be ready to jump right in.

I am also dealing with a tough decision about church. I don’t feel that Watermark has enough support for me because its a small church. Should I go try a bigger church? On the other hand, I should be leaving around May or June. Is it realistic to create new relationships just to leave them? These are questions that I don’t know the answer to. I am praying and seeking counsel. If you have any advice, please share! Thanks!