Today's accomplishment

It was a long day, full of internal struggles and challenges. I want to do a really good job but sometimes that is hard to do. Its especially hard for myself and any other first-born kids out there. Traditionally the first-born comes into the world with a certain amount of perfectionism.

Today’s accomplishment was going to Peoples Church and it was a great encouragement. I met some people and had a good conversation about humility. I am always praying for wisdom but tonight I am very thankful for all the goodness that God has given me and I was reminded of that tonight.

Patience

My greatest challenge most times is having patience. I have decided there’s something that I want and I am not interested in waiting until the timing is right to get it. I want it now. This is partly because of the technology that surrounds me, which often gives me instant gratification. This is also partly due to being a first born. First born in the family does not have much to wait for compared to the younger siblings.

Dear Lord, Thank You for teaching me the valuable lesson of patience. Please give me more strength to make it through to the finish line. Amen!

First Born Complex

Today’s rating is Negative.

It’s not an all around bad day but I found myself wallowing in self-beating thoughts. I am hyper-sensitive and I see how that makes me miserable. I’m trying to move the focus to where it belongs, on positive thoughts.

First born kids tend to be conscientious and put attention on perfection. This is impossible. Now that I understand this, it is time to loosen up. I don’t feel that today was a success. Thank goodness for a new day and tomorrow is Friday!

Blogging for me

Today’s rating is Positive.

I am blogging to keep myself honest about how I feel. When I look back at 2010, there were not enough positive times in my life. I couldn’t laugh, I was stressed, I had headaches, and I hated just about everything in my life.

I am learning about myself. After reading some books, I can see where I run into problems. I’m a first-born and I’m constantly looking for perfection. I’m hypersensitive to most everything that goes wrong. Add in some loneliness and there’s the recipe for 2010’s misery. Now I can see where I’ve gone wrong. The true test is if I have learned how to get past these innate personality quirks. The test isn’t over yet but so far I am doing good. THANK YOU GOD!