I've come to realize that I eat way too fast and I'm not mindful of what I'm eating. This means that I'm not enjoying my food. Good food deserves attention and should be savored. In high school, I had 30 minute lunches and some of my jobs were the same. I think that's the root of this bad habit. Starting right now, I plan to enjoy my food and eat it slowly. Smaller bites that are well chewed will be much better for me.
I have been playing the piano for over 20 years and I still get frustrated! I constantly question my knowledge and abilities. Should I be able to play better than I do? Will I be able to learn and improve? In high school, I learned how to play chords for the purpose of playing for the youth group worship. Rote memorization was the key and I learned the basics. Later I learned the anatomy of a chord but still it was basic. Today, I am wanting to play more than chords. I want to be expressive and add depth to the worship experience. That is not possible playing chords. The music director at church is trying to teach me but his primary instrument is the bass and drums. This process has been so difficult that I've taken to youtube to try and make sense of it all. The conclusion is that I'm back at the beginning, learning more basics: all the 12 keys and the tones, and how to hear the key of a song and compile the chord progression of that song. Truthfully, I have no idea how this basic music theory will help me to be more expressive. I must move forward to find out.